Good evening friends. It is important for me, whether it be
in a meeting or working with someone to never give advice or suggestions. You
never know how one will take what you say, or how their mind works. Instead,
all I can offer is my experience, as it happened to me. And if I can't offer
that, I shut up so someone who can help gets that chance. You truly never know
how you will handle anything until you're face to face with that situation. I
heard in a meeting tonite, a gentlemen speak of his first year of sobriety
being the "honeymoon stage" and he rode that pink cloud... I couldn't
help but laugh to myself, and share that that WAS NOT my experience. It took
every ounce of my being to not pick up the first few months. Then it took all I
had to not break down mentally and emotionally. People generally love or hate
what I speak/write about. None of that is my concern. I only hope they hear
something that will help them, or help them in the future. My experience has
been a rough, bumpy, weird, and fucked up one. But here I am. Sober. Alive.
Living life on lifes terms, one long ass day at a time. Instead of focusing on
what has happened to me, I focus on what I've accomplished. What I've learned.
How my experiences may benefit others, and that it was my HP and the helping
hands of recovery that got me this far in my journey. I've had to make some
hard life changing decisions... And then live with them. And with grace. Pride,
ego, and fear are ALWAYS an obstacle in my path, and if I'm not constantly on
guard, "sooner or later" they may be my downfall and take my life
away. I wasn't promised a happy ending, a big house, a bunch of cool friends,
or any of that other shit. I was promised to live a happy life one day at a
time IF I was willing to go to any length for it. That means doing things i don't
want to. Making tough decisions and then accepting the outcome. Things werent
handed to me on a silver platter. I had to work for them, in addiction AND in
recovery. I worked hard at destroying everything in my path for that drink and
drug. So I sure didn't expect to not have to work just as hard to clean it up
and get my shit straight. We are guaranteed a daily reprieve based on the
maintenance of our spiritual condition... Which tells me that its constant
work, everyday, and only for One day. And how we live that day will absolutely
affect our tmrw. I cannot stay sober today on yesterdays recovery. I may have
learned something yesterday that will help me today, IF I apply what I learned
yesterday to what I'm facing today. SIMPLE PROGRAM FOR COMPLICATED PEOPLE, LOL
;-) So think positive. Plan on doing things you don't want to do. DON'T give
up. Or plan on having Ur
next drink/drug . Sounds pretty simple to me. The day will be what you make it.
I wish you all a happy, joyous, and free, next 24. And you'll have that IF you
work for it. Happy Monday friends, have a great night :-) I'm out.
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