Good evening friends :-) I would have NEVER guessed that the highlight of my week would be getting my 2 beautiful babies on a Friday night, grabbing some movies and chilling with the dog, LOL when you have lived a life such as mine, filled with chaos, agony, destruction and mental/emotional/physical torture, these simple pleasure where never even a thought, let alone something I look forward too. I was in a meeting yesterday when a friend was talking about being grateful for getting a job at the rehab in town. She witnessed a woman swallow glass, a man freak out and start punching a wall, a pimp of sorts get excited to be marrying his girlfriend (that he pimped out) in the up coming weekend, and some other stuff I can't remember. Point being that she was reminded of where she came from, and was grateful to be going back the next day. As I listened to her share, I too was reminded how at one time, things of that nature were very normal to me. And today, that is far from normal. Its scary to think that I was fine with that lifestyle and assumed I would live that way, with those people, until I left this earth. I'm grateful I don't think the same anymore. I'm beyond grateful that the psychic change that has occurred in me has happened, and that I'm even able to look at these things differently today. It is a great thing that something as simple as the 12 steps, when worked, applied, and rigorously practiced in every affair, can have such an overwhelming change to your life BEFORE you even know it! I'm so grateful for the reminders of how it used to be, what happened, and sharing about how life is today. The shit we hear and go through cannot be made up! We are a people who can only help and understand each other. When we give recovery as much as we gave addiction miracles do happen- Everyday, right in front of us. Having the light bulb go off inside our heads, watching it go off in others, and having genuine concern for our fellows, are truly the joys for me/us. Most normal folks don't and won't ever understand this, and that's OK. We, alcoholic and/or Addicts, celebrate the victories and get each other through the frustrations of our lives TOGETHER. And I'm thankful to have gone through the things I have, especially sober, and grateful to be able to help those in need and who ask for it, with the experiences I have lives and know of first hand. We are a fragile yet strong group of people who have walked through hell, found a way out, and have acquired a faith that WE KNOW it will get better IF we don't drink or drug. I "thank you" all for being there, those that are there, and those who will be there.
I love you all :-) have a great weekend friends! I'm out.