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David E.: Posted on Monday, July 15, 2013 12:47 AM
MILK & WHISKEY - I compare and can associate
with Jim's story on many levels. "TO be irritated because he was a
salesman for a concern he once owned" The self-hatred of the consequences
that I created. The mind itself does not differentiate between healthy and
unhealthy emotion, only the emotions are there and they are real, escape comes
natural and necessary. (We can endure and tolerate pain, but the survival
instinct automatically screams protection by escaping or controlling the
situation) the response of "this hurts, get away now by any means
available." The familiar pain brings about a familiar escape. So the
defense mechanism kicks in the BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY. To put a lil whiskey in
milk, to read it, it's insanity, but at that moment in Jim's life it was sound
reasoning. A perfectly sane idea! The truth from the false, insanity vs.
insanity. The mind so powerful that there's no difference from the two, only
the escape... What seems a simple solution to complex problems we fall prey at
that moment to believing the LIE. The deception that this disease characterizes
- kills the spiritual light that's within with such a DARK-WILL, steals by
robbing the mind of the healthy emotion and thoughts necessary to survive, and
destroys the relationships built with my creator and other children within the
rooms of recovery...To know that ANY compromise I make with my disease directly
effects my recovery!!! "The thought crossed my mind if I were to put an
ounce of whiskey in my milk it could not hurt me" I CAN RELATE - David
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